“Realize that it is not how you feel that determines how you act, but rather how you act that determines how you feel.”
If you haven’t any doubts that the above is true, take note of how you feel emotionally when you are in the midst of an exciting and enjoyable vacation. No matter how much running around you do, no matter how much physical exertion may be involved, no matter how many hours you spend wandering the labyrinthine hallways of a mouldy old museum, if you’re excited about what you’re doing and where you are, you will feel emotionally fulfilled. You will feel emotionally charged. You won’t feel emotionally drained. You won’t feel dead inside. For each and every one of us, there is a time and place of maximum emotional energy.
You need more of that in your life.
I need more of that in my life.
To say, “I just don’t have the energy for that right now,” is to offer an excuse and obscure the real cause for your behaviour. And what’s the real cause? I don’t know; only you can know. I can give insight into what is really ailing me, but for you…the best I can do is encourage you on your journey and offer hints or ideas about where you can look next for your answers. The dusty, sweaty work of excavation and study is yours. Dig up the artifacts and figure out what they mean within the context of your life, of your experience. The interpretation is up to the individual. Remember: your perception is your reality.
That said, I think there’s a universal truth involved, and that truth is that we tend to believe that energy is external to us and that recharging is a passive activity. In other words, some other force of the Universe is going to fill us up. It’s a mistaken belief that the responsibility lies outside of ourselves. While there may be truth in the idea that other people and other powers can give us a boost, the ultimate job of keeping the energy store at a maximum is ours. You have to consume food to stay alive, and in order to consume, you have to acquire. The same goes for energy of the spirit: you have to look for it and consciously imbibe it. Without the action, there can be no reaction, no benefit.
This is the key to the idea that it is how you act that determines how you feel. Acting is action. Taking action invigorates. At times, the desire to remain still simply overpowers the desire to move. It is at these times that we must remember that it is action and not lack of action that will have the greatest positive effect on our emotional state. Those splendid, rejuvenating vacations…they are filled with action, with conscious effort to engage in activities that will bring us peace and enjoyment. Even sitting by the pool, reading a book is conscious action if it’s what you really want to do and really need in the moment. Ditto the rock-climbing adventure.
Can sitting at a desk be the same as that climb up the vertical face of a mountain? Sure! Why not? If you make the choice to be engaged, to actively seek the energizing path, then your desk job can be a source of great fulfilment. It’s about how you act, remember? How you feel will follow. If sitting at the desk sucks the very happiness out of your soul like some Dilbertian Dementor, then it’s up to you to make the shift…the monumental, Earth-moving shift to stop letting how you feel determine how you act and start taking action to determine a new feeling.
What should you do if you act your butt off and the feelings towards work don’t change? Then take more massive and decisive action. In the words of the disembodied voice from the movie “The Amityville Horror”:
“GET. OUT.”